17 weeks since the murder of Ahmaud Arbery.
15 weeks since the murder of Breonna Taylor.
4 weeks since the murder of George Floyd.
4 weeks since the flood of protests against systemic racism and police brutality.

There are more now: Rayshard Brooks, Sean Monterrosa, Jamel Floyd, and even Justin Howell, a protester shot by “less lethal” rounds by police, is now hospitalized with a fractured skull and brain damage.¹

“Teach us to count our days,” says the psalmist, “that we may gain a wise heart.”

Perhaps you, like me, have been literally counting your days a lot recently. If so, you’ll know that today marks the beginning of week 15 since the COVID-19 pandemic dramatically altered our community on March 12. Tomorrow will be day 100. That’s 100 days without in-person community, of forced separation, of journeying into an unknown future; 100 days that none of us could have planned nor predicted.

Almost every day now someone asks me "What can we do?" to fix the systemic and deeply ingrained problems of racism in our country and in our community. I struggle to give an answer that provides for any kind of easy solution.

Because there is no easy solution.

This work is hard. It takes time and sustained commitment by the people who do it to learn, change, confess and rebuild together. 

The primary reason this work is hard, and the reason this work often falls short, is because we have to be willing (especially as white people) to say that our lives - personally, communally, professionally - will have to change in ways that we do not understand at the beginning of the work.

Last fall, at an out-of-town gathering among clergy friends, I admitted that I felt like I was repeatedly preaching the same four-point sermon: the world is a mess, we have reason to despair, but the future is in God’s hands, therefore we have hope. The backdrop then was increasing polarization in our country, anxiety about a government failing to govern equitably, increasing economic disparity across the globe, and mounting concerns about climate change which is related to all the rest.

Dear BMPC Friends and Family,

We are a people on edge watching fires fueled by a history of systemic racism erupt around the United States of America. The horrifying death of George Floyd under the knee of one Minneapolis police officer, while three other police officers stood by participating, has raised our righteous anger. The fact that this act of injustice followed the recent incidents of Ahmaud Arbery being hunted down and killed while jogging in Brunswick, Georgia, and EMT Breonna Taylor being shot to death in a botched police raid in her Louisville, Kentucky, apartment has enraged anyone with a conscience. The ensuing peaceful protests have been appropriate demonstrations of civil unrest and a cry for justice. The violent eruptions that have accompanied them have not.

Being home with my children full time has been much different than I thought it would be. As a working parent, they're in daycare five days a week. I get home from work and I’m exhausted… and I just try to get through the evening without letting my exhaustion take over.